Deliverance

I've been daydreaming about 

that fateful afternoon

When our eyes met and smiles 

danced in conversation

And how your heartbeat quickened

When we were sipping coffee

The tremble in your palm

When you reached out to touch me

And your breath warming my flushed cheeks

When we were too breathless to speak.

I remember here, in this room 

Your chocolate kisses and your fingertips 

When we swayed back and forth

On the currents of fickle faith

I remember all the promises you made

That you never managed to keep

I remember my absolute naïveté.

I've been thinking about empty mornings

And the air heavy with your absence 

and how our words blurred into silence

And the silence ceased to be comforting.

I've been trying to remember to forget

The way our fingers seemed to interconnect

The way you moved with easy grace

Your luscious lips upon my face

So here it is, empty room and empty words

I've tried talking about it, but I doubt you heard

Or cared either way.

The coffee cups sit empty

The silence is overwhelming

How do you undo a part of your life

And disconnect it from your living?

How do you manage to break things that are already broken?

How do you bury words that have already been spoken?

Is there no limit to the grief I can feel?

When the darkness devours the light

And everything becomes unreal 

When you're no longer by my side

Where does the phantom pain begin to ache 

When I can't find home because it isn't a place